My first week has not been so great. Hetty was taken terribly ill and I've had to spend a fortune on her treatment. It was touch and go for her. She seems to be pulling through now, thankfully. The very last thing I needed though was extra expense. My finances are now causing me sleepless nights. I feel trapped, claustrophobic, alone and desperately unhappy. I can't seem to muster any energy or enthusiasm for anything.